"I will have many tissues available for you," said my cousin Helen as we realized that Jamie and Jessica's wedding is next up on December 5th. She said this as she saw how teary I was at the recent Vermont wedding of Doug and Hauyin, and as she realized how teary I would be in December. "Maybe I won't cry at the wedding," I said brightly. "True, I have been getting very teary at odd moments this year leading up to the wedding, but maybe I will have cried myself out before the actual wedding." Helen just looked at me.